Flowing in the Vine Life Diary – 9
But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all things that I said to you. John 14 vs 26
3 for it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure. Philippians 2 vs 13
So today I am going to try to keep this short. I know my posts have been a little…a lot…on the longer side and I am not even sure if anyone ever really wants to take the time to read such long posts. Anyway, today we are going to be talking about the fact that I have been struggling with figuring out what is appropriate to post. Not to mean that I want to keep myself from sensitive topics or things that could get me ‘targeted’ by people – I have decided not to work on not paying too much attention to that as long as I am talking about something that at the end of the gives glory to the Lord Jesus and impacts His people in one way or another.
It’s in that later point where I have been struggling, the giving glory to God point. I have found myself writing something and then having to pause and really consider if what I am writing glorifies Jesus in any way or if it’s just a bunch of word thrown together that only serve to show my confusion and maybe even resentments in this journey as a Jesus girl. I don’t want to go back and change any of what I have already posted but in the last few days, I have found that I wrote some things that I discovered I could not post. I really thought over what I had written and decided that maybe I needed to think about it a little bit more and figure out exactly how I want to say what I want to say?
This is something that’s important to figure out even as I start this whole journey because I don’t want to look back and realize that instead of being a source of encouragement to someone, and being a witness in whatever way I can be, I have instead led someone to not believe in God or want to follow Him. Now here is the thing, I realize not everyone is going to agree with my point of view or the relationship I have and am building with Christ, but I do want to be a light as He is a light. And I definitely don’t want to do this by on own might or power but by the power of the Holy Spirit.
I need to be open about this from the get-go, I don’t really know what I am doing, and every morning I wake up and pray to ask God for wisdom to cultivate this gift He has given me and for Him to give me the wisdom to show Him forth in the way He wants me to. I have to be honest though that I am also constantly praying for the ability to be more sensitive to the leading of the Holy Spirit. In John 14 verse 26, Jesus said that Helper, the Holy Spirit will teach me all things and bring to remembrance all things that Christ has said to us and I have been asking God for me to be more sensitive to the teaching of the Holy Spirit cause otherwise I am doomed.
I need Him to teach me how to write, and how to write in a way that gives glory to the Lord Jesus Christ. I know one lesson He has been teaching me is that all I need is to be diligent to do what He asks of me and He would take-of making it all a success. In Deuteronomy 8 verse 18, it says that we need to remember that it is the Lord that gives us the power to make wealth, and in John 15 verse 5, Jesus says He is the vine and I am the branch and without Him, I can do nothing. Now I know some people are making it financially or whatever without Him but that’s not the life I chose, I chose life in Christ. And I chose to have the success that He brings without sorrow (Proverbs 10 vs 22). This doesn’t mean being lazy but I don’t want the anxiety and stress that comes with going it alone and knowing it all depends on me.
So with His guidance, I can know I can do this, but it’s probably going to mean that for now as I am just starting this journey, I am going to have to take a few pauses and just check myself to make sure it’s coming from Him and not from me. I am going to have to take a few pauses and make sure I am following the Spirit. The word also says that Jesus gives us the willingness and the ability to do for His good pleasure (Philippians 2 vs 13), “I am ready Lord, for both of them. I need more of Your desire, as a well as the ability to do what pleases You, not what I want or what may cause me to be a success in human terms. It’s no longer I that lives, but Christ through me.”🙏🙌
Search me oh God and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me (there is a lot…), and lead me in the way everlasting. (Psalm 139 vs 23 – 24)
‘Well, Cassie, let not your heart be troubled, He is your righteousness and your salvation. You’re I AM’s, he’s got covered.’